For us, 2016 has definitely been the year of change. So many big decisions have had to be made, so many changes have been upon us it has been hard. Change is scary and, no matter how old you are or how many children you have, some decisions just seem a little bit too grown up for us to make.
It is hard to say 2016 has been a bad year, how can it be when I am now holding my new baby in my arms? However, it has been hard, with the first 6 months being really difficult and, for a good few months, I just felt under a cloud of sadness – something I have never really experienced before.
I had grand plans that 2016 would be the year of my blog with me having the courage to put myself out there to make it a success. In some respects I have achieved this with my stats ever growing, working with bigger brands and, most importantly, feeling like I fit in a little after having made some blogging friends. However, I had hoped to achieve more and I guess life got in the way. I suppose life always will and that’s not a bad thing.
In the new year I do hope to get a bit more organised and set myself some ambitious blogging goals. I do think though that 2016 has taught me to put things into perspective. For example, if I don’t post for a few days or I don’t sent x amount of Tweets, it doesn’t really matter. There will be times when I fly and times when I fall.
I have spent every month of this year pregnant and it has been exhausting. My miscarriage in February was heart breaking, falling pregnant so fast afterwards was daunting but I think the worst part of the year was Harri’s leg operation. It wasn’t life threatening, it was simply routine but I have never been so scared in my whole life. Watching her be put to sleep and then waiting and waiting for what felt like a life time was excruciating. My heart goes out to any parents that have to deal with this on a regular basis.
We have had redundancy scares and future financial decisions to make which are still ongoing – there has been a lot of worry and uncertainty.
But, we have also had plenty of high points including many trips away, mini adventures, watching friends marry, watching friends have babies and new friendships. I have witnessed Meme grow in confidence since starting school and, now in year one, she is like a different person. Harri has grown out of the terrible twos and she is such a delight, I call her my little sunshine because she really is such a happy go lucky fun little girl. Finally, of course, there has also been the arrival of my gorgeous little boy who has already made our family feel complete.
These high points by far outweigh the bad. Even on the darkest of days, I know I am so lucky surrounded by family, love and blessings. So as we enter 2017, aware that we will still have some challenging times ahead, there will be plenty of tears, sleepless nights and tantrums. I also know there will be so many smiles, laughter, adventures, opportunities and love. I simply can’t wait.
Happy New Year!