What if I fall?

I have been feeling a little strange regarding my blog the last few weeks, it’s hard to put my finger on it but something just doesn’t feel right. A couple of months ago I wrote some blogging goals and I was determined to get a little more serious about it all.

For the first time ever I am monitoring my stats, linking up to more sites and trying to put myself out there. After watching other bloggers write reviews and sponsored posts it is finally my turn to write some and, let’s face it, there is no better feeling than when somebody wants to work with you. Isn’t that what we are all working towards?

Well, actually, I’m not sure. I actually don’t know anymore what I want from my blog. As much as I love writing and taking pictures, savouring these precious memories, I hate waking up every morning thinking what picture can I put on Instagram. As much as I love joining linkys, I hate the pressure of trying to comment on x amounts of posts. I hate that blogging never allows you to be able to switch off – I feel like I am constantly trying to think of ways to increase my traffic, to build up my social media followers and, quite frankly, it’s exhausting.

So then maybe I should just write and not worry about all the extras, stop linking up, stop my social media accounts, stop working with PR companies and simply just write. However, this doesn’t sit quite right with me either. I feel by doing this I am selling myself short – of course I want people to read and enjoy my blog, I want to interact with bloggers and to work with brands to have a successful blog.

Maybe this strange feeling I’m experiencing is ambition. I have never been an ambitious person, I have never craved a high flying career or to earn amazing money, it really has never bothered me. So maybe for the first time in my life I am feeling ambitious. If I am being completely truthful with myself I have to admit that I want to achieve something with my blog and this scares me a little. I guess with success comes failure and maybe this is what I am fearful of. The last month or so I have put myself out there and at times it has resulted in disappointment. I hate that feeling of not being quite good enough but I know rejection is all part of achieving something.

I have no answers to my questions but I am hoping things will become more clearer over time. So, for now, I will plod on doing what I am doing, working hard and trying my best – isn’t that what I teach my girls?

 

“There is freedom waiting for you,
On the breezes of the sky,
And you ask “What if I fall?”
Oh but my darling,
What if you fly?”
― Erin Hanson

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72 thoughts on “What if I fall?

  1. But my darling, what if you fly? I thought of just that when I saw the title. Your blog is fab and I really enjoy reading it. Keep going as long as the passion takes you x

  2. I agree .. But what if you fly!
    Your post is refreshingly honest and very relatable to blog life. Keep writing, all will right itself in the end (ooh dodgy writing pun not intended there!)

  3. I am right there with you not knowing where God is leading me – no answers, but I do know I like blogging but get tired of worrying about all the other “stuff”. Right now staying with the basics I guess until I know where I need to venture or “fly”.

  4. This is such a beautiful post! It was the first post I was going to read today despite being the post before mine in the link-up and that’s the honest truth! I love your blog. You are amazing! And don’t doubt yourself. Ambition is hard – it is exciting yet exhuasting and disappointing. I can completely relate to everything you have said here. Do what feels right for you and what makes you happy. But remember, there are people out there that love what you right regardless of anything else. X #Sharingthebloglove

  5. This is just how I’ve been feeling. I’ve just recieved the product to write my first review and it gives me a real knot in my tummy – is this what I want? Am I putting too much effort and time into my blogging? It’s never going to amount to anything, is it? I was chatting to my husband about it last night and he just said that I should do as much or as little as I want – I get to call the shots. Basically, there is no pressure other than what we put on ourselves. We can have a break if we want or have a really intense couple of weeks where you throw everything at it. My problem is, I change my mind about it every day (probably several times a day!) #SharingTheBlogLove

  6. I can relate to this. I’m a very new blogger and have a lot of the same feelings – fear of failure & rejection, or just that something I started for fun becomes too much like work because (like you), I can’t help being a bit ambitious about it! A very honest post and well-written – I’m sure you’re going to get where you want to be. #sharingthebloglove

  7. Oh wow I feel exactly the same as you. It’s so hard to switch off – always thinking that would make a good post, or that would be a good Insta. Also feel the same on the ambition – never had much before but suddenly find myself wanting to achieve things – strange feelings! Thanks for sharing #stayclassymama

  8. I love it when people write honest posts about blogging like this because it brings us all together to reassure us that we are all the same! I too have days where I just cannot be bothered to link up or comment. I do force myself sometimes. I think it’s because I’ll kick myself if I see a fall in stats! I’ve had this blog three years now and I’ve left it and come back as many times. This is the longest I’ve gone & I’m pleased I’ve stuck it out. When you start getting the experience of working with brands it doesn’t feel quite so daunting and it spurs you on. Go with your gut and all will be well. Oh and you just got yourself a new reader! 🙂 #bloggerclubuk

  9. This is one of my all time favourite quotes. Fear of failure has held me back from doing so many things in my life and I put off starting my blog for the same reason. Don’t give up. Having read a number of your posts I can tell you are great at this, you just need a little more faith in yourself. And trust your instincts, if you need to pull back in some areas to concentrate on the ones that you are more passionate about then do that.
    #SharingtheBlogLove

    1. Such a lovely comment thank you. Failure has held me back also, I guess its important to show our children that sometimes its ok to fail sometimes it’s how you deal with it afterwards (if that makes sense) x

  10. I think we all feel like this. I didn’t start blogging so that I could post a million pictures to Instagram every day. I didn’t even want to join Instagram in the first place and had to be cajoled into it, but this seems to be the way things are headed. As long as you are happy, that’s the main thing, but I know how you feel-sometimes it’s hard to work out what the right direction for your blog is. #StayClassyMama

  11. I really relate to this. I’ve been at this coming up to a year now and the stats are very slow to pick up. It’s so easy to feel down on yourself. But I think I feel similarly to you – I don’t have the confidence yet to approach brands (partly because of the low stats, so it’s a viscious cycle), and I’m not totally sure that I have too much interest in doing lots of reviews. But deep down, there is that slither of ambition that tells me I do really want bigger things for my blog, even if it’s difficult to admit.

    I’m in a place now where I’m trying to just focus on the reason that I started blogging, which was to capture those family moments. I love your blog, it’s one of my favourites and one I always have in my mind to head over and read. I think you should absolutely have the confidence to do whatever it is you want to with your blog – sometimes it’s just a case of working out exactly what that is.

    Thanks so much for joining us again at #SharingtheBlogLove

    1. Yes I think I really struggle – I don’t actually know what I want from my blog. Hopefully I will find the answers in time. Thank you Katy I love your blog also – Max is just adorable. x

  12. This really resonates with me. I too have been slumping a little bit lately, feeling like i’m juggling too much at once as a single Mum, working full time, trying to get into shape again AND blogging! My other problem is that I get really jealous of the success stories. I SO want to be that person that hits the big time and gets a book deal or something to that effect. I guess, if we just carry on writing for us then we can never be disappointed. But, is that going to be enough? Urgh, who knows!! #stayclassymama

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  14. I have literally been feeling the same way the last week and questioning everything. I want my blog to be successful, I feel that ambition with my young blog and am excited but exhausted. Linkys social media I’m struggling to keep up this week and feel like I should focus more on my blog and my writing the next few weeks to refocus myself. Do what is right for you and know you’re not alone #fortheloveofBLOG

  15. I got to a point earlier this year where I felt this way and for me I knew the answer – that as much as I love my blog, my passion for writing is way more important and I definitely didn’t want it to get to a point where all of the fun and enjoyment was sucked out of it just to meet blogging goals. I also knew that I didn’t want to sell myself out just for better stats, and in order to be true to myself I needed to make sure my priorities were straight, Yes it would be amazing to be a professional blogger and reap the many rewards that no doubt come with it, but right now I’m just a mummy who loves to write and that is good enough for me. #stayclassymama

  16. I could write this myself, constant pressure of whether to push the blogging further or not. I’d love to go further with it but I worry about it. I just have a mantra that I tell myself most day. Blog for me, write, enjoy and anything else is a bonus. At the moment I am here for my son and the blog just documents this one day he’ll need me less I can push it a bit more then. #sharethebloglove

  17. I feel like this sometimes. I haven’t been doing reviews for people yet, but I hope to be there soon and I know I will spending more time on my blog then. Do what feels good for you, try not to compare yourself to others x
    #fortheloveofBLOG

  18. This is so me right now! I’ve been feeling like this since May when we went on holiday and I had chance to reflect on my blog. Since I came back I have been a lot more relaxed about it, but I don’t know how much to put into it. Because will it ever go anywhere? I have no confidence to contact PR companies, but then I am not sure you need to, they seem to find you. How I have no clue! At the moment I feel like I am just plodding along. If you ever need to chat, I’m here 🙂 x Thank you for joining us at #SharingtheBlogLove

  19. It’s a difficult one isn’t it. I think lots of us can relate to it. I started to want more from my blog and expected it to happen overnight and question led myself when it didn’t. I also stopped enjoying some of the aspects of it. I still want to make something of my blog other than a hobby but it tesfjusted my expectations or perhaps my time frame. I don’t have the answers either lovey other than to say I don’t think you’re alone in this. Thanks so much for linking to #forthrloveofblog xx

  20. I love that quote and I think you’ve put perfectly what a lot of people feel about blogging. I know I do. It’s something I want to be proud of and it’s still very firmly a hobby but then sometimes I really feel like what’s the point? Why am I doing this? For those reasons I give myself a little break from it all but now I’m starting to feel the blog love again and want to join in with linkies again and read more blogs again. I’m sure it will come round again when I get a bit fed up with it but for now let’s see how I get on. xx

  21. I feel pretty similarly. I enjoy my blog and would love to feel no pressure but the reality is that I do and like you I want my blog to be successful. I love reading your blog and it comes across as very genuine and real. I tend to switch off to the blogs that are a little too perfect.
    #sharingthebloglove

    1. Why is so hard for us to admit that we want to be successful! We should be shouting it from the roof tops! Thanks lovely – I love your blog too although all those sunshine pictures make me a little envious!! xx

  22. I couldn’t have written a better post on the nuances of blogging. I feel almost exactly like you except that I still don’t have sponsors asking me to review things and that is okay. I enjoy writing and blogging is making me an even better writer. This was my first time visiting your blog but now I’m hooked.
    You’re doing great. Just keep at it. #sharingthebloglove

  23. #mg Hey, Let me tell you- You are not alone here. We all go through this phase on and off. Reading other Blogs gives me complex but I do not want to fall in the cycle of writing not so real posts to make money. I just want the world to read my experiences,my views.
    Connecting to fellow Bloggers gives us happiness and that is what we need. Happy to visit.

  24. I feel like that, up and down, sometimes it just takes too much commitment but then I also love it and love that people read my blog and tell me how it helped or inspired them. Your blog is beautiful, I believe you are flying #mg

  25. Oh I know exactly how you feel. I want my blog to be a success, and in some ways, it already is but it’s so hard trying to balance writing with promotion. Since I returned to work it has become even more difficult, even the writing part (my favourite bit) is hard because I literally have no time. The only me time I get is normally time I use to blog but then what about the ten thousand other things I am meant to get done?? I love this post for its honesty, and I think you are doing really well with your blog! Thanks for sharing with #StayClassyMama!

  26. I totally get every point you have made and agree with all of it. I took the pressure off with our amount of linking up as it was the school holidays and the children have to come first and I kind of like the feeling of being less stressed but the guilt and then the panic at not getting the blog out there is in the back of my mind and as you say the ambition that drove the blogging has to be nurtured- but I have decided on my own terms rather than this imaginary force I feel- life has to come first!!Great to read your piece and identify with it and feel less alone! 🙂 Lou at http://www.peppermintcove.com

  27. That is such a great quote for so many reasons! And a great post from you. I know I go through this from time to time, and I’m a newbie. I think i will continue to write and share because it feels right, healthy, cathartic. You are not alone out there… and ambition is okay too!

  28. I started my blog 6 weeks ago and have just started to feel the pull of wanting to do well at it and build it but also the realisation that it could take over!! As with everyone who has commented, I really love your blog xx #sharingthebloglove

  29. This is such an honest and beautifully written post! I totally relate. Sometimes, I just want to write (wasn’t that the reason I started blogging in the first place?) instead of being social every day, joining linkies, commenting, worrying about my stats or number of followers. It’s so exhausting indeed. But sometimes, I want more of my blog… Sometimes, I’m not sure if it’s worth all the efforts; sometimes, I’m sure I should keep going. We should love our blogs no matter how successful or not they are. It’s all about our own satisfacton, not SEO, DA, rankings, whatever. 🙂 #SharingtheBlogLove

  30. I really enjoy reading your posts, your blog is great, write firstly for the love of it and then the rest will follow. I found you on instagram initially. I feel the same about my own blog, a lot of it is about building confidence and getting involved in the conversations you enjoy, maybe just pick a couple of linkies to take part in that you can dip in and out of when you feel like it. #sharingthebloglove

    1. Oh, thank you so much! Yes, a couple of lovely linkies is fine (#sharingthebloglove turned out to be my favourite), but many linkies is too time-consuming and actually, not all of them work for me. Happy I have found your wonderful blog. 🙂 x

  31. I relate to this. The thing with craft blogging is that things take some time to make, so I think there’s a bit less pressure to post frequently – it’s not achievable to have a new blanket to write about every week! It does mean my blog has a bit less momentum than a lot of others out there, so that’s what I worry about instead! I think we all worry, but the important thing is to keep your blog being something you’re proud of, and not to churn out content for the sake of it. Xx

  32. You are most definitely not on your own! We have super positive & productive days where we feel like Cake Club could rule the world – and then other days we’re tired and low, we’ve been to work and just want to watch the telly and wonder why we’re spending our free time faffing about on bloody Twitter all evening! I guess we all just have to remember that writing is what we love to do – write from the heart, put it out there and trust that the rest will come 😉 Loved this post. Look forward to reading more from you X #SharingtheBlogLove

  33. Hi, I am a complete newbie to the world of blogging, and (this is how clueless and naive I am), I didn’t even know you could make money from it!! I started (only a few months back) as a form of therapy and to reach out to others in the same boat. The world that has opened up to me though is very overwhelming! I think that if you still enjoy writing then keep going, and if you make a bit of extra cash then bonus! #SharingtheBlogLove

  34. I’ve only been blogging for for a short while and in that time I’ve realised how difficult it is to put yourself out there and get noticed! Keep doing what you enjoy and if you get offered an opportunity that you think you would love, go for it!! #sharingthebloglove

  35. I could have written this! It’s exactly how I feel, apart from I guess that I would say I’ve always been ambitious. I want to do the best at everything I do. I started my blog a few months ago because I used to write for my work and I wanted to keep my skills up whilst I’m now a SAHM. But I am so overwhelmed. There are not enough hours in the day. I find myself falling asleep with words going round in my head of things I want to write. I’ve now done 3 linkies but as far as I can tel they’ve only given me a couple of click throughs so now I’m wondering what’s the point? My husband works hard so the evenings I want to spend time with him but with a toddler to look after all day I hardly have time to write in the day. Then there’s the constant Social media etc… I am just going to try keep writing from the heart and even if that just makes a few friends smile, I suppose that’s something. The PR companies can wait! You’ve definitely found a new reader in me. Good luck with it all.
    #fortheloveofBLOG

  36. I completely get this. I’ve only, perhaps in the last year, actually found out that blogging could potentially mean more to my family than it does, but then I don’t want my blog to lose “me” from adding so many sponsored posts and reviews. I’ve been taking a bit of a break with linkys recently too but getting back into it so I can get back into a routine when school starts up again! Like anything, you’ll find a balance, and you clearly have a passion for you blog to “do well”, keep creating awesome content is my advice. #sharingthebloglove

  37. Blogging has a way of taking over all your thoughts. I can’t pick up the camera without considering if I can use this photo op on my blog. Sometimes I feel bad for making Peachy sit there while I try to get that perfect shot. Poor girl. #SharingtheBlogLove

  38. Thank you for posting such an honest account of how you feel. I’ve only been blogging for a few weeks, but almost instantly could see how 24/7 it could be. I have to remind myself I chose not to go back to work and I’m not looking for a full time job right now. However, I spend a lot of time doing blog related stuff. I’m just going to see how it goes and take my time to see what I want out of it. #SharingtheBlogLove

  39. A very refreshing post which resonates with a lot of bloggers! I’m only 3 months in and can see how it can become all consuming. I’d like to make a success of my blog (whatever that means!) but ultimately don’t want it to impact negatively on my time with my daughter. #SharingtheBlogLove

  40. Such an honest, vulnerable post. Thank you for sharing. I began blogging to share my PND journey but now I’ve added other aspects and have begun working with brands. It is SUCH hard, time consuming work but the feeling you get when it slowly pays off is kind of addictive. However, if working with brands ever stops being enjoyable then I figure it’s time to stop.

    Thanks for sharing and good luck! X #sharingthebloglove

  41. As you can see from the replies you’ve already had you’re definitely NOT alone! In fact I’d say most bloggers out there have written a similar post or if not have certainly felt this way. I had a little wobble a few months ago but feel much more in control now. For me the key is accepting that you can take your blog in whatever direction you choose but you need to be realistic about how much you are willing to give to it. I can’t dedicate my evenings or weekends or even late nights to it because I’m a mum and a wife foremost which generally speaking leaves me ‘school-time’, to work with. Everyone has different goals and different commitments so it’s important that you don’t compare yourself to others, ambition is great but as the saying goes “Comparison is the thief of joy’ and if blogging becomes a chore then you’re just not going to enjoy it. It’s so hard not to compare but many of those mega-bloggers could be up until 3am or feeling overwhelmed with the workload they’ve given themselves. Not for me I’ll be honest! Always remember, you are in charge of your blog, not vice versa! #BigPinklInk

  42. What if you SOAR? And you can…I do hear you on the things you have expressed so well. I personally face the same struggles as I have realised that there is so much work promoting and linking than the actual writing and there is always that fear….but if we don’t take a leap, we’ll never know and the best part is? When you leap, there will be good online friends who will cheer you on and catch you if you fall. I am glad I discovered your blog and I can say I look forward to reading more of your writing. Thanks for sharing with #bigpinklink

  43. This is me right now! I find it so hard to be part of linkys or post sharing when I comment on. Every. Single. One. And get maybe 4 comments back. When was commenting on someone else’s post related to ambition for your own blog anyway?!! Thanks for sharing. Sometimes I think it is just me feeling like this.

  44. The quote at the end says it all – maybe you will fall, but maybe you will fly. There will be set backs, rejection and days where you feel like giving up, but by keeping going even in the face of all of this, you’re giving yourself a chance and that’s all any of us can really ask for
    Debbie

  45. You will sore with the beautiful posts you write!
    I am really interested in blogging and the reason i haven’t started is for all the fears you have put above but reading that has given me the confidence to start.
    Inspire while the inspiration is inside you!
    I look forward to reading more of your thoughts!

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