2019 – The Highs and the Lows.

Goodbye 2019.

2019 – another year gone with the blink of an eye. I remember when I was younger and Christmas would take forever to come around. I always wonder at what point this changes. At what age does time suddenly speed up and Christmas comes every few months?!

I wrote a post 6 months into the year detailing a bit of a turbulent year. Redundancies, worry and new jobs. It hasn’t been the best. Although now I am sitting here thinking back I have a little more perspective. It was a rubbish time but of course people around me have had it worse. Friends have lost parents, families have fallen apart, people have been struggling with their own mental health issues. I know I am very lucky.

The latter part of the year have been better. A family holiday to Spain, a sleepover for Meme,another family adventure to Disneyland Paris. I also finally settled into my a little and whilst I knew my new role wasn’t for me I did make some lovely friends. The job also gave me the motivation to find something new.

For the past 9 years, I have used the excuse of needing a job that is close to where I live and works around the children. However, with a little bit of planning and organisation I can actually work wherever I want to (within reason obviously). So a couple of weeks ago I found a new job that makes me feel excited again. In a place that is my home and I honestly wish I had made the plunge sooner. Naturally I am scared and nervous, there is a lot more responsibility involved and I do worry that I won’t be able to do it. However, it was time for change and I am incredibly proud of myself.

There have also been changes in my husbands job which have been both incredible exciting and scary. He is amazing at what he does and I am in constant awe of what he achieves whilst juggling three children and supporting me.

My Children

2019 has been a roller coaster with Alfie. The terrible twos have been challenging and many evening my husband comes home to find me in tears because it has been such a tough day with him. Even now on the cusp of his 3rd birthday we still have a lot of tantrums and melt downs. Yet when he is on form he is amazing. So confident and such a character, he brings a room together. You have no choice but to chat to him and he will have you singing the wheels on the bus at some point. A walk down the street takes quite some time as he stops to chat to people and stoke some dogs. He makes my heart sing and I hope this never changes.

My girls have thrived this year, I actually plan to write a little update on my girls. It is easy to forget but I started a blog to capture my children’s milestones and this is something I need to do more of in 2020.  They are such good girls and a huge help with Alfie. They are patient and kind with him, even when at time he doesn’t deserve it.

Every year has its up and downs. Sometimes I worry about the little things far too much. I struggle to silence the everyday noise. Are they doing ok in school? Why haven’t they been invited to a school friends party? Are they eating too many sweets? I think this is motherhood though, I am not sure I will ever silence this noise. I do however know that these worries aren’t really important, and this is what I need to remember.

Going Forward

I have a whole lot of goals and aims for the new year. Nothing life changing but just little tweaks to myself and my life that will hopefully help with the day to day stresses.

So here’s to 2019 – the adventures, the giggles and the milestones. I hope it was good for you too.

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