It has been the first full week of July and the school year is almost done, although our weeks don’t seem to be slowing down. It is all go from the minute Monday comes. Due to the school strike we had a spontaneous extra day with Meme, which was just lovely and gave me a little taster of the summer holidays. This week I also had the opportunity to meet Meme’s new teacher which I am really happy about – I say this constantly but I just cant believe how fast this year has gone and we are talking summer holidays and new teachers already!
This week I had my 16 week midwife appointment. I would never describe myself as a worrier but I did feel a little anxious about this one. When I was pregnant with my girls I suffered from terrible morning sickness, their presence was noticed every single day, with Meme especially. I remember crying some days, completely fed up with being constantly sick, my days were a repeat of needing food, needing sleep and being ill. People would say ‘ Pregnancy sickness is a good sign – it shows the baby is healthy’ .
This pregnancy is so different though it isn’t completely smooth sailing, I feel quite nauseous at times and I am so tired all the time – it does seem a lot easier than my previous experiences though. It is so typical, I prayed for an easier pregnancy and now I have one I’m panicking – what does this mean?
So I have just been a little anxious and looking forward to hearing my babies heartbeat. My midwife did warn me that it is still early days and that the heartbeat may not be heard but I knew I wanted to try. I think my baby sensed my worry and we heard the loudest strongest little heartbeat which just filled my heart.
It’s funny, I am the most sensitive person ever, I can cry at the drop of a hat. However, I have never really got sentimental with pregnancy milestones. I never shed a tear at my girls scans, my midwife appointments were just routine and, unlike many, I rarely shared my scan pictures.
This pregnancy I do feel more emotional, my eyes fill up every time I think about this tiny person growing inside of me. Maybe it is because it’s my last, I don’t know but I do know that even though we have a long way to go, I am very excited!