Sometimes you don’t want to do stuff….. but sometimes you need to.
It has been a stressful few weeks for me struggling with change and anxiety. I love my family and feel incredibly lucky that I get to spend all my time with them. However, I have definitely found that since becoming a Mum I struggle to switch off and let go, well I suppose as a Mum you never do.
But sometimes I need to. I need to switch off, I need a break, I need to step back and do something for me, for us.
So last weekend my husband booked us a night away in the Lake District for just the 2 of us. It was funny because right up until we went we kept looking at each other and saying ‘oh should we just take the kids?’ – we honestly love being with them. We didn’t, we went, just us. Half of me was so excited for the much needed break and to spend some time with my husband. Yet the other half of me was worrying about leaving the kids.
So we went and yes we missed them, we talked about them constantly. Yet some time away was what I needed, what we both needed as a couple. We don’t have much time together at all, only the weekends which are dominated by the kids. We don’t have much help, we do it all ourselves and I am proud of us. We have three amazing children who constantly need us, we love them, we provide for them and, in return, they bring us so much joy. They are our everything and we work hard to be the best parents we can be, to give them the best experiences and to help make the most amazing memories with them.
But sometimes we need to remember that it all started with just the 2 of us – Natalie and Phil. We need to make sure that the 2 of us are the strongest we can be, the happiest we can be because I never want to be in a situation where I no longer have this family unit. I never not want to see my husband lying next to me in bed or have weekends where my kids aren’t with me. We need to spend time communicating and planning and even reminiscing.
It was only one night. We talked and laughed, we drank cocktails and held hands. We pottered about. It was what we needed – being a couple again, just for one night.