2017 is our year of change so I wanted to write a little post about how we are all adapting to the new dynamic at home.
It has 4 months since my lovely boy came into our world – the 5th and final member of our family. I can’t quite believe he is here but then, at the same time, I can’t remember a time without him. He is so smiley and full of giggles, such a delight to be with. I just love him and I am enjoying him so much – I am making the most of every moment with him and I honestly don’t want this time with him to end.
The girls love their brother so much, especially Harri. He is the first person she asks to see every morning. He equally adores her. His face lights up when he sees his sisters – my heart feels so full.
We definitely had a little period when Alfie was around 2 months were Harri started to be a little naughty at times. I didn’t think much of it until my husband questioned if she was feeling a little pushed out. This broke my heart – I would hate for my lovely girl to feel like she had to fight for my attention. I have definitely tried to be more aware of this, I need to remember that she is only 3 years old. It must all be so confusing for her.
We have also been adapting with my husband starting a new job this year. It is a longer commute so he is not coming home until after the kids are in bed. We knew it would be hard and it really is. I am pretty much solo parenting all week so by Thursday, as you can imagine, I’m exhausted. I am also lonely – I miss him. Motherhood is hard and I can vaguely remember the loneliness when Meme and Harri were babies. It is strange because I am actually never alone – the kids are always with me. I also see friends but it’s just not quite the same as having my husband or family with me. I just don’t quite feel myself but it is still early days since having Alfie so I am hoping that I will start to feel a little better in the next few weeks. It is a struggle but I know me and my husband are making the best choices for our family.
I guess if I had to describe the first few months it would be amazing, overwhelming and very very busy! So many emotions all at the same time, happiness, tiredness, anxiety…. I definitely still feel like I am adjusting to our new routine and the new dynamics of our family. Juggling three kids is definitely a challenge.
I do know that no matter how hard some days can be, how lonely and overwhelmed I can sometimes feel, I am so lucky to have such an amazing family, I couldn’t be without them.