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2017 – the year of change

2017 is our year of change so I wanted to write a little post about how we are all adapting to the new dynamic at home.

It has 4 months since my lovely boy came into our world – the 5th and final member of our family. I can’t quite believe he is here but then, at the same time, I can’t remember a time without him. He is so smiley and full of giggles, such a delight to be with. I just love him and I am enjoying him so much – I am making the most of every moment with him and I honestly don’t want this time with him to end.

The girls love their brother so much, especially Harri. He is the first person she asks to see every morning. He equally adores her. His face lights up when he sees his sisters – my heart feels so full.

We definitely had a little period when Alfie was around 2 months were Harri started to be a little naughty at times. I didn’t think much of it until my husband questioned if she was feeling a little pushed out. This broke my heart – I would hate for my lovely girl to feel like she had to fight for my attention. I have definitely tried to be more aware of this, I need to remember that she is only 3 years old. It must all be so confusing for her.

We have also been adapting with my husband starting a new job this year. It is a longer commute so he is not coming home until after the kids are in bed. We knew it would be hard and it really is. I am pretty much solo parenting all week so by Thursday, as you can imagine, I’m exhausted. I am also lonely – I miss him. Motherhood is hard and I can vaguely remember the loneliness when Meme and Harri were babies. It is strange because I am actually never alone – the kids are always with me. I also see friends but it’s just not quite the same as having my husband or family with me. I just don’t quite feel myself but it is still early days since having Alfie so I am hoping that I will start to feel a little better in the next few weeks. It is a struggle but I know me and my husband are making the best choices for our family.

I guess if I had to describe the first few months it would be amazing, overwhelming and very very busy! So many emotions all at the same time, happiness, tiredness, anxiety…. I definitely still feel like I am adjusting to our new routine and the new dynamics of our family. Juggling three kids is definitely a challenge.

I do know that no matter how hard some days can be, how lonely and overwhelmed I can sometimes feel, I am so lucky to have such an amazing family, I couldn’t be without them.

 

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13 thoughts on “2017 – the year of change

  1. It sounds like you’re doing an amazing job spinning all the plates. Well done! Things should improve with time as you get more used it all, but look after yourself 🙂

  2. 2011 was my year of change it’s when number 3 came along and my partner worked nights – I felt the same so happy but overwhelmed with it all. Sounds like you are doing an amazing job. Sarah #mg

  3. Oh I can sympathize! It is hard those years when they are all so young and needy.. especially when hubby is not home a whole lot. It does get better though and you definitely have the right frame of mind for it all. Sounds like you are doing a great job.

  4. It is so hard to explain the feeling of being lonely but never alone isn’t it? it must be so hard all week I know I find it all consuming when my husband is away so hats off to you for doing that every week and I hope you feel more like yourself soon x

  5. it is such a strange thing that we can feel so blessed, lucky and happy, yet so exhausted, anxious and lonely all rolled into one, but I think being a mum can sometimes really feel that way and you highlight that beautifully here. Especially with a newborn it can feel so isolating. I felt like that for sure with all 3 of mine. Now my youngest is in primary school it has all changed, you will get there. It must be tough without your hubby there, but I know you are both doing your best, never doubt that! Sending love xx #mg

  6. It’s great that you’ve tried to make sure that nobody feels left out. I agree that motherhood can sometimes feel overwhelming. #mg

  7. You’re doing a fab job lovely. I find the nights where I have to solo parent 2 kids hard enough, can only imagine how difficult it must be to look after 3 of them. I’m positive things will get easier over time, my littlest is 6 months now and I definitely feel like I’m getting to grips with our new routine now.xx #mg

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