Second time around.

Second time around.

Call me disillusioned, naive or a even a bad mother but I really thought that experiencing milestones with Harri would be a little easier as she is my second born – still as precious, still as amazing but a little easier for me. I have done this before with Meme, I have tackled the nursery drop offs, the starting preschool and the experience of Primary school. I thought for some reason experiencing them for the first time would be the hardest.

Today is Harri’s first day at preschool and here I am, nervous.  I tried to deny it to myself but the last few days I have been grumpy, snappy and very emotional. I have blamed it on tiredness and hormones but, the truth is, I’m dreading her first day. She is my baby and she is starting a whole new place on her own without her Mummy and without the extra care that nursery gives. She has to walk in to her new preschool with a packed lunch, hanging her coat up on a peg, find her name on the board and sit down with all the other children.

I am worried she is not ready, she seems too little. She has only just turned 3 but, I know that she needs this and I know it will prepare her for school next year.  I just can’t help feeling so upset though, watching my little girl take this huge step.

I know just like Meme she has got to go, she needs to spread her wings and take this next step. I also know that she will be fine and come out at 3pm with a big smile on her face excited about being one of the big kids. She will chatter all the way home and show me what she ate for lunch. She will give me a hug and all the worries I have had throughout the day will go.

I know they have to grow and us parents need to let them, encourage them but why do I find it so hard?

I thought it would get easier but now I honestly think it is going to get harder…..


21 thoughts on “Second time around.

  1. Aww I think it’s totally normal to feel upset watching your baby grow up. My boy had his first.full day of play school to and I found it really emotional, ha had a blast though. I am sure it will get easier for you lovely xx #TwinklyTuesday

  2. Oh dear. I was hoping it would be easier with the second too. At least you’ve prepared me for it! I’ve been surprised how emotional I’ve been about the eldest moving from Reception to Year 1. I thought it would be easier because she’s already at school, but it’s still got to me! I hope Harri settles in quickly and I’m sure she’ll surprise you with how ready she is for it. #DreamTeam and #TwinklyTuesday

  3. I completely agree, it’s just as hard isn’t it? I thought I wouldn’t be so emotional about Eva starting school yesterday as I still have two little ones at home, but I was equally devastated and cried like a baby!! Being a mummy is always going to be hard, whether its your first or your fifth. I wont ever stop being an emotional wreck on these “firsts”. #sharewithme

  4. i know what you mean. i find leaving my second at nursery no easier than my first..and am dreading her first day at school already and its two years away! i think its probably because i know shes my last! #bloggerclubuk

  5. Whilst there are some things that are easier second time around. I’ve found the milestone moments really emotional. I will be exactly the same when Holly starts preschool. I was a wreak today when Alice started school and I can’t see me being any different when it’s Holly’s turn. X #picknmix

  6. Aww I can’t imagine any of these moments being easy no matter how many children we have! They are such big emotional moments that are different for every child. I hope you are feeling OK about it all as the week has gone on 🙂 Thanks for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday

  7. Oh no I’ve just had Monkeys first day at school and I thought it would be easier with Kipper that was my consolation! Maybe not!! Eek. Hope it gets better for you lovely xx #DreamTeam

  8. Oh I know how you feel. I thought this too and it really wasn’t. If anything it was a bit harder as my second born is a bit more anxious than his older brother. Hope All going well for Harri! #mg

  9. My boys aren’t in school or nursery, I’m planning on homeschooling for a little bit but I can only imagine how you feel. My boys are 1 & 3 next month and it doesn’t even seem like 5 minutes ago I gave birth.. Why do they grow up so fast!? 🙁 #picknmix

  10. Awwww. I remember my son’s first day at playschool. I sobbed all the way home. And then, again when he started school as a first grader. Harri is going to do great. ♥ Sending you hugs! #mg
    Adore the photo above the post!

  11. Aaaahh its all normal and has that effect on all of us I think. I even got it last week and my boys are 7 and 10 but seeing them go into school looking all smart and excited for their first day back brought tears to my eyes…again!:)



  12. I thought things would get easier with my second but actually they didn’t as I knew just how guilty I was going to feel leaving him at nursery. I hope it has all gone well. Thanks for linking to #PickNMix
    Eilidh x

  13. Oh bless you sweetheart! I know what you mean though and I think for me it was because I was pretty sure (and now definitely am) that I wouldn’t be having any more children, so all his firsts were also my lasts. Thanks for linking up to #PicknMix

    Stevie x

  14. In many ways I found my son the hardest to let go of, maybe because I knew he was the last one I would see start kinder and school, I knew I would have no more babies in the house to distract me and keep my mind off him being at school. #mg

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