I’m excited I am fast approaching the 3rd trimester with my 3rd child and I am definitely in pregnancy denial. I can’t wait for baby number 3 to arrive. I’m not saying that I am not enjoying my girls and my life because I am, but I always knew deep down that I wanted three children. I feel that once this baby is here in our arms, in our home, in our family that we can truly start our life as a family of five. No more pondering if we will have more children. No more trying to get pregnant again. No more heartbreak when things go wrong and no more pregnancy sickness.
As a busy mum of two I am trying to buy a few baby bits here and there, nothing big just babygrows, vests, bibs etc. – I have been storing them in a drawer in our study. Last week I went to have a little look to see what I needed more of when I noticed that all the items that I had bought were for baby girls. We didn’t find out what we were having so the gender will be a complete surprise. What am I thinking?
Am I in pregnancy denial that I might have a boy?
Truthfully? I can’t imagine being a Mum to a little boy, it’s not that I don’t want a boy, I just can’t even imagine what it’s like bringing up a son. When I think of our family all I can see is girls. I have two sisters, my husband has a sister, there is my niece and, of course, my girls. Apart from the arrival of my beautiful nephew a couple of years ago it has always been all about the girls.
Am I in pregnancy denial? Just because I have two girls doesn’t mean my third will be one. Just because I can’t imagine having a boy doesn’t mean I wont have one. When I actually allow myself to believe it could be a boy I feel a little bit of excitement. It would be so different, so new. Although, another beautiful girl to complete our family would mean 3 sisters, just like my Mum had.
Like the majority of parents I have no preference as long as it’s healthy. That is all I care for. However, I am intrigued….who is going to complete our family? How is our story going on end? All I can say is, roll on December!
Have you ever had pregnancy denial?