Baby Loss Awareness Week
I wasn’t really planning to write this post about baby loss awareness week. I actually don’t like to talk about it but I guess that’s half the problem. Nobody wants to talk about it but maybe we need to.
I suffered a miscarriage back in February when I was around 11 weeks pregnant. It broke my heart, I didn’t want to write about it, think about it, acknowledge it, I was even back in work the next day as I just wanted to ‘get on with it’. I felt embarrassed, sad and alone. I felt like I was in a cloud of darkness.
Anyone who has suffered a miscarriage knows it’s not always that easy to just get on with it. Eight months later and I am seven months pregnant with my 3rd child. A pregnancy I never thought would happen, a little surprise, a little ray of light, a little bit of hope.
After much deliberating I wrote a little post about what happened to me and I found it helped. Although sometimes I am tempted to delete it, it just makes me feel so sad if I see it. This week reading many peoples experiences about baby loss I know I wont, I can’t, this is part of me.
I still feel sadness over my lost baby, I still think about it, I still cry from time to time and I still hurt in August when my baby was due – but I never ever talk about it.
I guess maybe that’s the problem – nobody talks about it. Maybe we need to.