For the last couple of years me and Harri have pretty much run around after Meme. Took her to school, picked her up, took her to parties, rainbows, dancing – the list is endless. Sometimes my lovely Harri would say ‘Mummy I want to go with Meme’ and I would always answer, ‘be patient lovely girl, your time will come’ .
This week has been a busy one for my youngest girl. We started the week with a settling in session at her new school that she will be starting in September. She wasn’t phased at all but I was kind of pleased that I was wearing sunglasses to hide my tears. I had butterflies and just felt really sad. I have said this before but experiencing this second time around doesn’t make it any easier. Of course she was fine and is looking forward to starting in September.
Harri also had her first sports day, which was lovely to watch. Harri is such a whirlwind at home that I sometimes forget that she can sometimes be as quiet and as sensitive as her sister. When I picked her up from preschool at the end of day she told me she had missed me and has been quite emotional since.
I think she realises that life is changing for her, this makes my heart ache. I want to wrap her up in cotton wool, I want to keep her with me. I want to hold on to that baby innocence that she has just a little while longer. It may sound dramatic but I feel that you lose them a little when they start school. I remember how tough reception was for Meme and, although Harri is a completely different character, I feel so nervous about entering this phase again.
I have a few more weeks with Harri before the start of the holidays. So I will continue to spend my afternoons playing Barbies and making cakes with her. I will continue to take her to the park and for hot chocolate some mornings and I will continue to clasp her little hand as we walk home after dropping Meme off at school – all because I know very soon, sooner than I want to imagine, that little hand will no longer be there.
In September she will be joining her big sister Meme at big school and I will be whispering in her ear ‘darling girl, your time is here’
Picture taken by The Whispering Willow