I am currently full of pregnancy worries. I am well and truly into my 3rd trimester and the nerves are starting to kick in.
Even though I have done it twice before I feel a little apprehensive about the labour. I know it will obviously be painful but I am not sure that is what is worrying me. I hate going to hospital (although there is no way I could deal with a home birth). Leaving the girls makes me feel really nervous. It’s the whole unpredictability that child birth brings which I struggle with. It’s hard to prepare myself for the birth because I have no idea how it will pan out.
I remember feeling this way when I was pregnant with Harri. With Meme, I wasn’t worried. Although I had read birth stories and I knew it would hurt I simply had no idea what to expect. Now I know and that’s what scares me. I realise there is nothing really that I can do except go with the flow of it all but I do feel a little nervous about it all.
My due date is Christmas week. I am worried I may miss Harri’s first nativity, Meme’s nativity or even worse Christmas. The thought of missing the most magical day of the year makes me want to cry. I don’t want to miss them coming down the stairs, seeing Santa’s footprints in the hall and their faces when they see all their treats. Whilst it is what it is and also I try to keep in mind that it is just one year there will be plenty more magical Christmas days but it just makes me feel so sad. I simply don’t want a miss a single thing.
Any finally I do feel a little worried about the aftermath – like many, the baby blues hits me a few days after birth and I am dreading it. That day where you feel so rubbish and cant stop crying and even worse it will be Christmas time so family will be around and the girls will be off school and I know I will struggle to keep the tears at bay. I am not looking forward to it but I guess it is a case of riding the storm.
So a thinking out loud post really with a few little anxieties which I guess is normal. I am just praying everything runs smoothly and all these little worries will just fade away once my baby is safely in my arms. Fingers crossed.
It is completely understandable you will have fears, it is a massive change. Just remember that it is OK if your girls see you cry and be tired, I used to try and hide all my emotions from mine, but then I reapplied that it is OK, I tell them mummy is upset and I am strong so I will feel better in a little bit an d they love giving me hugs which I tell them really helps. They are more resilient than we give them credit for. Make sure you put some things into place for them so you can get a break too, some special alone time with your new baby. It is hard with 3, but also magical and you’re baby will be the best pre or post Christmas gift ever. Don’t be hard on yourself, it is great that you are opening up, so important to not bottle up feelings xx #mg
I want to give you a huge hug right now. This part is always so daunting especially when you don’t know when the baby is coming and there’s so much Christmas stuff going on. I hope you you sneeze it out and get home on the same day and that way you can enjoy absolutely everything. Sending you sneezy vibes 😉 xx
I don’t think you would me normal if you didn’t have a few underlying worries. We all have them most of the time! I’m sure it will all work out and your two girls will be over the moon with the best christmas present ever! Big hugs to you. x x
Ahh good luck lovely, you will be fine I’m sure. It’s completely normal to have these worries though, especially when you have other children to care for and the logistics of being in hospital aren’t as simple as with your first. I hope that the baby comes on a day when you have no big plans for the nativities, and especially not Christmas, but I know you have no control over that! You’re going to be fine, I’m so excited for you. #sharingthebloglove
You have a great attitude to it all. We all find things difficult around the time we have babies and accepting it’s just a storm you’ve got to ride will make it easier to get through.
Nat.x
I remember these, last year I had my third and he was due 1st Jan, I just made the Christmas plays and he arrived on the 19th December. It was a Christmas whirlwind but we made it through and now excited about our second Chrismas as a family of 5 ? You will be amazing and will make it work no matter what happens and when I am sure #picknmix
My friend was due around Christmas with her second and she had similar worries. He ended up coming early on the 18th December when she was walking around the supermarket getting the food for Christmas. Whatever it will be you will be ok, you will just deal with it at that moment. The hospitals are great at that time of year and know people want to be home for Christmas. thank you for joining us at #SharingtheBlogLove X
Awww sending big hugs. It’s completely understandable that you would feel a bit apprehensive, but I am sure that the birth of your little one will add even more magic to Christmas this year. The girls must be so excited. I don’t think a nativity play could ever compare to the arrival of a new sibling for them. #DreamTeam xx
Oh sweetheart, all absolutely understandable, but just concentrate on the result of the childbirth rather than the actual act. Think of those newborn cuddles and soft little body cuddled in to you, all those extra firsts you have to look forward to, all those extra happy moments and memories to make 🙂
Thanks for linking up to #PicknMix
Stevie x